I buy three bunches of eucalyptus at Trader Joe’s, plus two bunches of golden rod and some purple statice. I don’t usually keep fresh flowers in the house during Lent but we’ve got 8 foot icicles hanging off our roof, 4 feet of snow in our yard. and we’re currently digging out from our most recent snow storm. On top of that it’s been a long dark winter of kids getting sick, temps too low to go out with a baby, and my mind totally preoccupied with the health concerns of my oldest. Instead of the start of a penitential season, Lent this year feels like the continuation of the penitential season I’ve been in since January. I know that eventually I will get there, I will lean into Lent and mortify my flesh and walk the road to Calvary, but for now, darn it, I need signs of life. So I buy fresh flowers and eucalyptus.Read More
Due dates are the worst. No matter how hard you try to view them as an approximation, if the due date comes and the baby doesn't your brain instantly switches over from rational to irrational. Every day past the due date feels like a week. You begin calculating everything, what you eat, where you go, when you do laundry, trying to figure out how it will coincide with baby's arrival. Every bodily discomfort is wishfully interpreted as a sign of impending labor. You're even searching the weather forecast for changes in barometric pressure. Anything! Just give me a sign that this baby will come out!
This is where I'm at. 40 weeks plus 5 days and baby is sitting quite comfortably in my belly.
Waiting is hard, and I don't do it well. Yet there are many times in life where we are stuck waiting. When as much as I might wish or will it, the thing that I want to come isn't coming and there's nothing I can do about it. This particular period of waiting has an end in sight. I will be induced at the end of this week if baby hasn't come on his own by then. I know that by this weekend I won't be pregnant anymore, and, God willing, I will be at home snuggling my healthy new baby. That makes the waiting a lot easier.Read More